May Day May Day

She's going down! SOS! Ok, so I'm not gaining weight, but I'm not losing it either. I have completely lost my motivation. Send search and rescue! Get the bloodhounds! I can't believe that it's been less than 2 months and I am already struggling! Where's the proverbial carrot in front of the mule? Well I must have eaten the carrot. And his hay. Why is this so hard?!?! I'm not gonna lie, I'm pretty discouraged right now. You see these shows on tv and think hey! I can do that! But all they do is work out with a personal trainer and nutritionist and they don't lose the weight while dealing with everyday stress like meetings, and kids, and Christmas presents. Their only worry is will the hot trainer think my ass is too fat. Ha ha. And the worst part is I am so close! My first goal was to get to 199 and that's only 10 lbs. The holiday party is only 3 weeks away! Here we go again with the cycle. Set goals early, slack, get close, panic, crash diet, give up. They say the first step is admitting you have a problem. I'm Lesli and I'm a can'tkeepmyweightlossaholic. So, I am going to do what I can to not panic. I'm not gonna crash diet. I'm just going to start tomorrow as a new day and do better. That's all I can really do.