Day 1

So today begins the first day of getting to the thinner me. I am determined to get rid of this weight that has somehow moved in like an unemployed boyfriend. It's like I went to sleep and 5 years later woke up fat. So now it's time to release this thin beautiful butterfly that is trapped in this lumpy oversized cocoon. Now I'm not saying that I want to look like Kate Moss circa 1994. I like my curves and I like looking like a woman. I just would like to look a little more Marilyn and a little less Mimi. I would also like to learn how to skateboard. I have a 4 year old who's amazing and he loves skateboarding more than life. In fact he refuses to cut his hair because his favorite skateboarder (Mike Vallely) has long hair. I want to have the energy to run, skip, and jump with him. As the saying goes, I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. What's the point of being a fun girl trapped in a fat girl's body? I am looking for the healthy, happy, less me me. So tomorrow starts the first day of returning to a healthy diet. I mean, it's 10:30 pm so not much can be accomplished tonight, right? So consider today the forward to the novel of my journey. So here are the goals...in no specific order...

1. Improve my health. Diabetes, cancer, heart disease, and high cholesterol run in my family. I am a cocktail of bad health just waiting to be shaken...and the only thing I want shaken is a good dry martini.

2. Fit into my "skinny" clothes. I have so many cute clothes! Really! Not to say I don't have stylish or cute clothes now, but I am only wearing 1/4 of my wardrobe. I mean come on people. In this economy we need all the help we can get.

3. I want to be a pin up model. It's something I have wanted to do forever. I have never felt comfortable enough with my figure to do it. I am not unattractive but I don't take good pictures because the confidence isn't there. I want that inner confidence back. I am reclaiming my inner self!

4. Have the energy to play with my son. I want to take him to the park, and play soccer, and go for bike rides. I cannot miss out on any more of his life. Or mine.


So here we go. 1 year from now I will be 80 lbs less fat and 100% more awesome. At least I am going to do my damnedest to make this happen.