Day 6

Today was pretty boring but I did manage to stay on track. Forgot to set my alarm last night so I overslept and there was no early morning work out. Oops. This sure is a lot harder than it seemed in my head. I went to the grocery store after work and emptied my bank account but stocked up on food. Salads, healthy veggie pastas, super food juice, veggie tacos, and whole wheat breads. Did I mention that I am a pescatarian? So I am ready for this week. I am trying to lesson the margin of error. I realized today that I am going to a wedding on Saturday that is going to like a high school reunion. I had planned on losing weight 5 months ago when I found out the best man was someone I was in love with in high school. I am a little anxious since I have not come even close to losing any weight. That's what I do. I always plan on losing weight for an event or holiday 3-6 months out and then two weeks before said goal date I realize that I haven't done anything to work to the goal. Then I starve myself for 3 days, give up, and buy shoes to ease my pain. Let's just say I have a lot of shoes. So it's time to set my first goal. The company holiday party. It's 2-ish months from now. I am not sure if I should be setting goals in weight or pant size. I am still a little hesitant to state my current weight and pant size. But I told myself full disclosure. I guess saying it outloud makes it real. But it's time to face the fat. So here we go. Current weight 214. Current pant size 16. There it is. I can't run from it now. So my goal is minimum 15 lbs and size 14 pants. It's amazing how my focus and perspective changed in 5 sentances. That was really hard to write. It's even harder to re-read. But I now have a goal. I will be under 200 lbs. I am going to meet it. I can do this.